2022-12-23
it´s in the way that you use it, a perfect year for samo | entry by sven | |
this
year has been outstanding, with ups and downs as usually but with some precious
moments. as an artist I have achieved what I wanted which is giving me a strange
kind of peace and ignorance to progression or profit. my show at kunstwerden was
great, it was successful as it was what I wanted it to be and it reached the right
people among the one who do not get it. my second live show at szeniale was also
exactly what I wanted it to sound and look like with the same outcome. I can do
it again in variation. I have finally mastered it. sometimes there is profit in,
sometimes not, however I feel like having hit the peak. so what could be next? |
2022-11-20
art at the turn of self-efficiency | entry by sven | |
this
year has been outstanding, with ups and downs as usually but with some precious
moments. as an artist I have achieved what I wanted which is giving me a strange
kind of peace and ignorance to progression or profit. my show at kunstwerden was
great, it was successful as it was what I wanted it to be and it reached the right
people among the one who do not get it. my second live show at szeniale was also
exactly what I wanted it to sound and look like with the same outcome. I can do
it again in variation. I have finally mastered it. sometimes there is profit in,
sometimes not, however I feel like having hit the peak. so what could be next?
finding a gallerist for a long term collaboration has been so important to me
while it feels ridiculous now. it is the same with music labels. my anticipated
benefits have always been imaginary and projected upon people who appear to pretty
unable. I do not care about pseudo-deep saying delivered via instagram but one
sentence keeps echoing in my mind: ‘if you can do it on your own, you are unstoppable.’
in retrospective this feels like something which fits on my biography. do not
take this as arrogance, I know that I am nothing without friends and supporters,
but I remember knocking on doors which will never open, even knowing there is
no supporter behind… |
2022-10-18
daily grind escapist in visual echo chamber | entry by sven | |
when
there is so much stuff to do you count the days for vacation, while having time
off you have to go on holiday to avoid the stress fall-off or boredom when you
are home. when we are exhausted and need some days of we usually go to known places.
it is funny, you one again end up in a routine, like an everyday life within your
holidays. |
2022-09-27
summer reflections: froho jams and hang outs | entry by sven | |
I
have been pretty busy in different projects I am trying bring to an end recently.
however I wanted to put out a new blog post earlier but I did not find any time
to do so. however, as I have been scrolling through my journal I was stunned to
realize that there have been so many great dates in summer 2022. I was happy to
be part of something, to play at festivals and do art shows, but it was also great
to spend time with friends and even hang out with people I know on frohnhausen´s
market place. as it is autumn already, I try to remember the vibes of summer,
the easiness in going wherever I wanted to meet people or even not. I guess I
am pretty happy with the region I am in. |
2022-08-24
fin de semaine electronique | entry by sven | |
this
has been a remarkable weekend, actually an electronic weekend. after postponing
the szeniale because of the covid pandemic and working for about two years on
it finally took place last saturday. I was finally able to play the record of
tides set. after much practicing and preparing I was able to play a good gig,
I am pretty happy with the result. even if the set-up contained a lot of (still
on time) improvisation, the whole thing looked good, the way it was supposed to
be. |
2022-08-10
jumping through every given loop (cats & dogs) | entry by sven | |
the
summer break is almost over, I’m am quite relaxed and running out of structure.
one part of me is happy for some structure again, an other is dismissing any given
dates. however, it is all about balance again. I am always trying to do less (and
yes, I do it in the fair way as I am losing money), so I hope I´ll have more time
for the loved ones, also to make music and doing nothing in order to get an idea
of what to do. |
2022-07-29
for the museum hat trick: arken and ordrupgaard | entry by sven | |
how
to spend your holidays properly? visit big cities and go shopping or lay down
at the beach and get drunk before 4 pm? well, I know this might be strange but
we just love to check out the museums and it has never been disappointing. of
course, this is relaxing but also filling you with impressions you have to put
in order afterward. well, one of the ways doing it is this blog. |
2022-07-26
copenhagen vs. lousiana (and back to gentofte) | entry by sven | |
our
trip to denmark was caused by getting tickets for queen + adam lambert in copenhagen
(clologne was sold out already) and it was postponed two times as the tour was
postponed two times because of the pandemic. 2022 was supposed to be the year
when we took the 850 km trip by car (other options did not turn out to be useful
in the end). out first visit made us come to copenhagen which turned out to be
disappointing. it is an impressive and beautiful city but we were quite annoyed
by the masses of visitors and did not feel right there. actually, we did not really
know where to go and what would make the city so special, so we went to touristic
spots, of course. |
2022-07-23
queen + adam lambert, copenhagen, june 18, 2022 | entry by sven | |
brian
may means a lot to me. this guy has been an inspiration and archetype in so many
ways. to me he is a lot more than just a rockstar, he actually is something like
a teacher, distant friend or family member. I am a fan for 30 years now (after
freddie´s passing, see last paragraph), I started to become fascinated when I
was around 14, probably an age that is open for archetypes, sometimes even the
false ones. brian may coined me a lot, as musician, but also as human being. I
have learned and adapted so much from him like the way in playing guitar, constructing
a signature guitar and adapting his wiring/switching, song writing, ping-pong
delays even for beats in idm productions, being gentle and clever, honest and
ambitioned, ignoring drugs but being interested in so many disciplines and always
seeking for new horizons. this list could be longer but it should be enough for
now. |
2022-07-10
will the gate open if I stop shaking it? | entry by sven | |
I
wanted to come up with this blog post a lot earlier but I have spent some days
in gelsenkirchen to take care again and did not find the mood and time to fix
the lines. now – on the last day of exhibition – I am nailing the issue and add
some random anecdotes. |
2022-06-13
a path into the past, a portal to findings | entry by sven | |
this
weekend was full of puzzled dates mostly around the 25th anniversary of my school
exam a.k.a. abitur. my feelings about returning to school and meeting old class
mates were controversial, my broken leg in 2017 spared me from a decision on visiting
the 20th anniversary. however, this time the anniversary was split into an inspection
of old school rooms and a night part which I decided not to join (so I would not
have to pretend interest in information I would not like to share about myself),
also because michael offered pizza for a party on his ranch. |
2022-06-08
consol idm hdj set: culture in the shadow of the ruin | entry by sven | |
we
all do our stuff and then we send up in new constellations and events. I felt
honoured when roman asked me to do a dj set at consol for an upcoming ‘pick nick’
and whatever it was meant do be. as you might know I see myself as a musician,
not as a dj and my live performances are often mistaken for deejaying so I get
the irony when I come up with a dj set myself. |
2022-05-28
primavera: performance, recreation and demolition | entry by sven | |
I
was deeply honoured when I was booked into the frühlingserwachen festival line-up
to play at heilig-kreutz-kirche. a day that was all about the quarter and the
opening of the former church as event venue. playing at a festival always means
that you are planning around your own performance, you are always nervous and
take care of your duty, it is hard to have a good time. this time I was scheduled
to play at half past one in the afternoon, which is a strange time for an electronica
set. I felt misplaced within the line-up so I played for a smaller audience. this
is something I have chosen anyway. I never focussed on all but on the single one.
|
2022-05-07
a brilliant decade followed by remarkable retirement | entry by sven | |
as
you might know I have been struggling with the art scene and my participation
over the years. this is not new, it is still there, but it has changed. a lot
has changed in the world and even myself. the pandemic made artists discuss their
relevance followed by a wave of financial subvention followed by a gap of post-covid
creativity. as I missed shows a lot, I am facing a lot of lame stuff. and it is
the same with me, after postponing a show over a two-year span, things loose edge.
I created the ‘multiverse memory’ back in 2020 and did not show it in public.
numerous plans have been discussed, but most of it remains irrelevant. the art
scene is never engaged, covid-based postponements even sustained this phenomenon.
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2022-04-25
tree of cognition: an artist´s soul (gated) | entry by sven | |
it
has become a running gag to return to the ‘tree of cognition’ in the woods of
oostkapelle whenever we came back to zeeland. we discovered the tree back in 2011
and took this picture and nicknamed the plant making it appear deep and flat at
the same time. it is also part of the running gag that we did not find the tree
every time we went for it. however, a picture of us sitting in the tree was obligatory.
we were pretty surprised to find the tree gated and defined as natural monument.
i felt immediately guilty, did my climbing (and documenting it) lead to the gate?
did this tree need protection from climbers. well, i get it, the tree-sitting
pictures belong to the past, but i have to add that the tree was never harmed.
|
2022-04-22
lonesome selfies in an empty museum | entry by sven | |
i
was spending some days in my birth town gelsenkirchen again. it has actually become
a place for calming down, joining my mother on the terrace. well there is not
much else to do. i wanted to go out on some days again, checking downtown, timewarp
record store and the museum. well, timewarp records has a lot to offer, next to
well polished vinyls it has become a meeting point for metal kids and nerds like
me, unfortunately i´m not that much into metal as i used to be. |
2022-04-02
disaster display and echoing archetypes | entry by sven | |
spring
is coming to europe, the sun is shining, the trees get green but it is often colder
than expected. in may ways. we witness a war going on where conflict parties are
in negotiations for peace while bombing each other. the rest of us has returned
to routines without questioning any sense. petrol is becoming more and more expensive,
covid infection numbers are rising but home office is not an option. I do not
feel like working with arguments anymore. |
2022-03-19
apocalypse and holiday, uninspired daily grind | entry by sven | |
it
is hard to write something clever these days knowing it won´t change a thing.
maybe I believe in the butterfly effect somehow, maybe I can share a thought that
starts a landslide like a snowball and stops or even prevent bad things happening.
but I do not even know what this thought would be. the last days of february surprised
all of us, I was struggling with professional anger, looking forward to the release
of ‘monument’ and some days off at the netherlands coast (actually, one day and
two half ones, everything is framed by duty). |
2022-02-24
forget to smile, express deep-seated denial […redux] | entry by sven | |
this
year starts very special. there must be some cosmic constellation or an open permanent
line to hell or something. I consider myself as cooperative, I wonder if my colleagues
would label me as avoiding conflicts, and indeed I use a lot of humour even in
situations requesting my guidance. but at a certain point the things change slowly,
then very rapidly. at a certain point on we can no longer talk about content,
it switches to attitude und how we treat one another. |
2022-02-12
profit & community: the long echo of being dismissed | entry by sven | |
a
few days ago a digital friend, musician and supporter from bucharest released
a new album on a german label. we chatted and he recommended me an american label
looking for artists. I was grabbing some half-done productions I believed to be
fitting to the cold and generative idm the label was featuring and sent a demo
bundle. as the label heads were nice guys they even sent me friendly mail of denial.
and here we go again, an old expendable feeling returned: the feeling of being
dismissed. |
2022-01-31
fake a smile on deep-seated denial | entry by sven | |
this
year is not starting very well. there is a fall-off to being exhausted right from
the start. it is among all of us. no, it is not about the pandemic, it might be
a puzzle piece, but this is concerning the whole entity. sometimes it feels like
there is a cosmic ray that makes everyone go nuts but this is far to pseudo-scientific
to me. i can find myself in situations i cannot master, i cannot win. not because
i´m not the better one, not because of weaker arguments, not because of a lack
of will to compromise. i´m keeping the fist in pocket and i take it. you do things
as long as you have to – and you quite directly afterwards. |
2022-01-08
slowcoach of the year (once agian) | entry by sven | |
here
we go again, another year in the pandemic, more lame routines replaced by even
more lame routines. lets remember 2021 as the year which i predicted not to be
better (2021-02-13 lame 2k20 bashing while 2k21
is ahead | entry by sven). it was also the year in which we stated to attempts
to return to kirchberg but were hold back by the flood in summer and the rising
infection numbers in winter. so i had to do my classic
kirchberg picture at an adequate place in the siepen in fulerum during a nye
walk trying to establish a tradition. |