at the end of the year I am looking back on a difficult year for me and I am happy to witness that it Is over. it started back in march and has become more and more heavy on me about to smash me. I have witnessed the most egoistic, mean, evil, destructive, manipulative, malicious, perfidious and stupid series of assaults I can think of, brought into my life by a person I have known for two decades and accepted as part of my family. I have wondered why I have caused this amount of aggression but I only can come down to the fact that I was not willing to accept negligence. I was parleying and explaining for months, I was begging for help of officials and friends but remained alone. even after struggling with the situation causing issues of aggression, depression and anxiety while my mother was used as lever against me and even herself, I was completely down and even if it was a hell to accept this recklessness I was not willing to give in for peace (like usually).

I was surprised to realize there is always another level of escalation; it must have been a mixture of revenge and perfidious joy to create a situation of negligence while making sure that I would not even know about it. actually, I saw this coming somehow and we found a solution. nevertheless I freaked out and decided that this is the moment to take control on care and the money connected to it. the narcissist is not able to apologise, therefore not able to promise to make it better in the future. he prefers to manipulate pills and threaten with his move-out. as I spend my summer break with getting clear what a narcissist is, how he acts and how to tackle it, I decided to reverse every action he might come up with by making him face the consequences. his thread of moving-out was brought up to extort control and money back which was taken away as he has already proven his will to neglect and inability to reflect or collaborate but to scream around and run away. as it was no option to go back, it was no option to believe you could go back to someone extorting you. we accepted and to put up more pressure by moving out he must have been very surprised that no-one called to ask him to come back. surprisingly, everyone felt relieved.

what followed was the most stressful and desperate time I had in my life. I was taking care of my mother while consulting the lawyer to keep that narcissist and his lawyer away and I was making contact to organisations to create a perspective for the future. this was true 24/7 performance, with no option to care about anything else, my health, colleagues, friends, music, art, whatever… I accepted to do what would be necessary with all possible consequences, with a hope for silver linings but also willing to face a longer darkness. looking back, I was always willing to give in and to give more than others and it has never been about profits for me. but when it is about putting a beloved person in need in danger for the sake of egoism and viciousness, we are the limit of what I can discuss or accept.

and I was right all the way, as I witnessed the narcissist trying to put the pressure on me, trying to push me into hell. this might be retaliation for disagreeing but also to show that it does not work without him. as it does not work with him was already proven, and the guy being the cause for the situation can never be the solution for it. this might sound stupid, but within his logic all of this might still have been steps to make us give in to his conditions. however, even I the darkest hour, we have never looked back but trusted in helping organisations, friends, us and even god. still I cannot understand how a person can put his whole life into the pool and is about to go all-in and loose everything. and even after having lost everything this person is not aware of his own stupidity. it is like my friend dietmar said, for these people everything is a game.

in retrospective I have classified a bunch of people in my life a being narcissists: bosses, friends, relatives, students, trainees, lovers, they come up everywhere. and they all have one thing in common: you are always in conflict with them, even if you do everything to avoid it, sometimes they even keep it running even years after you have cut any interaction. there is no solution, you have to get rid of these people, they will make you seriously sick. I have decided that this will never again happen again, I will be aware and keep this people away from me and will treat them differently than anyone else. this episode took all of us a lot. but after all, there is no alternative. we are all fine with it. we are working on a future now and I made up a solution which is supposed to work for all of us.
I am mentally and physically exhausted, it will take time until I will be back in the saddle and out of the shadow. I feel changed and I will have a closer look on people. nevertheless you are surprised to learn what you already know: even if everything is over and destroyed these people come back again and again. they drag you into hell and ask you to help them out. you must remember what happened and why, fake friendliness comes as trojan horse…
the narcissist keeps our lawyers busy and well-paid, as expected, even if there is nothing left to get he lives in the misery of others. we have to get things done and leave the narcissist in the vacuity he belongs to.


throwback 2022: I reported to have crushed into a collegues car while driving backwards. what I could not bring together back in the day was the narcissists´s manipulation: I was put under pressure once again, I was full of aggression and felt helpless, I was not aware of the moment and crushed into the car. a stupid situation that was so unlikely to happen anyway. when dietmar and me talked about it, he more or less told the same story. I realized how dangerous this pressure is. you end up being more likely to have an accident, to get mentally or physically sick. why would you allow somebody to do this to you? with more time passing, I am getting aware of more and more manipulation. back in the day I named it without being able to interpret it properly: within this days of anger i accidently crushed into a colleagues car while trying to leave the car park. […] even more anger as i still do not understand how this could happen (well, running around while worrying about bullshit on your mind). like back in the day when i fell of my bike and broke a leg, i felt the was something in the air in advance. […]


if this year has taught us one thing it is this. I am not a psychologist but I claim to have diagnosed the personality disorder pretty accurately. In an argument, you can tick up to 21 indices for narcissism. there is no doubt left. even better: I have developed a grid of possible acting option the narcissist can take and surprisingly he is not able to act in any other way, even if all consequence falls back on himself.

01 fair-weather making (being friendly, faking goodness and goodwill)
02 gaining sympathy (being sick, attending hospital, complaining, looking for audience)
03 threating (threat to go away, neglecting)
04 eluding from consequence/conflict (not communicating, running away, staying away)
also, if there is really no option left, a fake apology may be the last option. it features passive construction, is not authentic or credible at all, but forgiveness is instantly resumed or claimed.

however, I can also talk about status symbols, and creating conflicts he cannot handle all the time, greed for advantage, money, profit and control. but also these people have a strong lack of self-reflection: they are less attractive, intelligent and important than they think they are.

when you have no idea how to act or what would be morally right I even wonder what jesus christ what do. jesus told to turn the other cheek, and I guess this is what I have done most of the time. I have even apologised in conflicts to bring them to an end, even knowing I have not been unfair or wrong. when I discovered that sympathy (which is the normal, sane and right reaction for people) is the completely wrong attitude towards narcissists, I wondered how this would fit to chris´s ‘thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself’. I sometimes think this phrase is emotionally misunderstood, as if it asks you to tolerate and accept everything. but if it means I love the other the way I love myself it also means I can allow the other whatever I allow myself which leads to not tolerate behaviour I would not tolerate for myself. with this moral construct I can be proud and rigid concerning the limits of my tolerance.

to be honest, I always thought that the narcissist phenomenon was brought up by non-reflective women who seek an explanation why the ex-partner is responsible for the failing of the relationship. now I know that this was extremely ignorant and sexist, and it helps me to understand why people do not understand what strange phenomenon I am dealing with. also I have found indices in male and female people, this is not a problem among males only. from all what I have experienced my life and especially within the last months there is a final finding: get these people out of your life. no sympathy, no compromise, no hope, no excuse.


when we went to dishoek in february for some days off I was full of hope that the year could be a good one. on our last day, I took this picture of the housings in front of the dune. I had no idea that we would return about half a year later with my mother, knowing that things are about to change. but what we and I have learned is that we can always think things differently, we and especially I tend to believe that things can only be repeated the ways they were. change means to do things differently and we have learned that we have the abilities to adapt to what is necessary. and it feels good to solve the problem instead of ignoring it.


my year 2023 was somehow in the shadow of the narcissist, I was not listening or producing too much material, I was always waiting for an extreme situation that would have to take care of. however, we created this ‘beachball’ video I wanted to put out for a screening in cologne at public places, also profits would have been included. unfortunately I finished the piece but I could not find time to bring it in before the deadline, so it just remains in the portfolio.



even if we took the whole covid thing serious and took our vaccinations I somehow got the virus. after three years this is the first time ever the test displayed two red lines, michi followed my a few days later. however, michi and me had to think of our short trip to the netherlands we took back in 2020 and which we had to break up because of a heavy infect – before the pandemic came over all of us. as the infect felt resistant as corona feels now, we still wonder if we already had a corona infection back in 2020 even before everyone thought it was possible. we´ll never know.


over the last years it has become a tradition to come up with pictures from the past. to be honest, this is the first year in which I have felt old. back in 2000 I founded a band called ‘apologies’ to play songs from my debut album ‘portrait’ live and to create new songs. we never made it on a stage, but we made a ‘public’ rehearsal with friends, I was seeking the photos for a long tome but finally found them as we bought a new printer/scanner. I was singer without knowing what singing is all about or even feeling comfortable with it. however, we split up 2001 when drummer and best friend jay had a ne job, and I wanted to concentrate on working on a follow-up to diptych. more pictures over at the AOUD photos site.


and a big thank you for having this guy in my life. michael schreiber is a great musician and producer but also a great friend who won´t keep you waiting a second to confirm help if you are in need. we need some time and space to go on working on new sounds. we are all ready for some good time. cross your fingers!


I did not take many pictures in the last months. now, however, I need to find back in my everyday life, blogging is one way to get along with all my contradictive and dark thoughts and emotions. I did not take care of my beard, so this is what I look like recently, I would have liked to get a bank note every time I heard the santa joke (which is even better than being compared to sido). even if I still feel bad and even if I wonder if it might get worse I have to get myself together. cross your fingers, it feels like walking on thin ice. I am really fed up with this year and its issues, I really hope for a better 2024. even if I know that this is naïve and it is not really a new start, I just go for it. I need to take things seriously as I facing feelings of depression and guild, I hope that things might get better automatically, but a therapy might come to my list of things to do for 2024.


here´s picture of dean blues and me last night at a pub in mülheim. recently, I feel that I have been taken out of my life for months, as I try to do the ‘normal’ stuff I feel like an empty shell running around pretending to be me. however, matthias danberg and me did our christmas homecoming classic bromance burger and beer at isenbergplatz. it still feels like visiting another planet but what am I supposed to do? however, dean and me did our tiny pre-christmas meeting more or less in a tradition that I assembled six years(!) ago. back in the day I remember having a bad time as consequence of my broken leg that year, so Ithought it could be great to do it again to get through the recession. I just wanted to say ‘hi’ and left after an hour but we had to re-stage our classic picture and we look way better than before. we talked about plans to make music, studio and live, but we are both into projects and issues that makes it hard to make plans come true. anyway, dean and me did two releases this year: we both performed on elektro jam #4 in february and created the track ‘fly away song’ together which appears on a prjct fear as well as on a record of tides release.


update 2023-12-27: dean blues added another picture of us (and I admit that I really looked like santa) with these great lines: what a great night on the 23rd of december. der michi & der sprenz played at bei uschi on their annual christmas gig. if this would have been a ticket event, this show would have been sold out. place was crowded with people, great live music & great vibrations. [...] great to see and meet up once again with sven piayda from record of tides. we both have a serious issue w/getting things done together. but someday people, some collaboration will happen. we just can’t say if it’s between the next 12 months or the next 12 years…;)




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as we have great weather and as I tray to capture most of it I am still acting in the shadow of the narcissist problem. I am lucky to have friends taking care of me, listening to my issues and sketching ways to handle it, also I was lucky enough to consult a psychologist for two times giving me some alternate views on the problem. I need a way to tackle it because it is doing something with me. I have phases of extreme aggression I cannot put upon the person that deserves it, all remains in me. also I have learned that every interaction is a trap following a larger aim of manipulation to take advantage. if you would draft a figure in a movie like this you would call it flat and unrealistic but it happens in the most flat and obvious way thinkable. I try to see the narcissist less as a human being, more as a kind of robot that follows a programming that he cannot understand himself. also he is following an aim he can never reach, while the inner emptiness can never be filled. I am facing a tough lesson this year, but I am willing to learn and to change my attitude and behaviour – no-one else will.


the isenbergplatz remains my place to be, after consulting matthias here on a sunday afternoon I return the next week alone. being at this place alone with a cigarette and beer watching the sun go down was helpful for coming down. I appreciate solitude these days.


when we were cutting the hedge I hade to rescue a cross spider. I put her into the lavender and she did not even look for a new place but build a new net straight away. it is great to see her (nicknamed ‘thekla’) growing and hunting and even witnessing her taking cover under a fern leaf. I am in love with cross spiders since my childhood days, especially in red ones. I often think that animals as willing to teach something, obviously to follow the pure necessity – and nothing more.


this beautiful visitor frequents our garden and even comes by to say hello if you talk to her. this friendly black and white beauty has a certain way to move and behave that I often imagine her with a monocle completing her style. see you soon!


I was working with draftswomen and draftsmen in education we had a lot of fun together building up vocabulary connected to their profession. they actually have tools and instruments that are not mentioned in the books and which is not easy to be translated. as english is a very descriptive language we had to figure out what would be the main task of a device. so would it be measuring or scaling?

however, I took a picture of the collection of sketched devices and their english terms. my mobile phone must have had a kind of technical problem as the picture did not appear in the gallery. I was irritated, I was sure to have take it, but there was no photo. it felt like gaslighting again, is my phone playing tricks on me? after a few days, the picture actually appeared at the right place of the timeline. where had it been before? am I getting paranoid? maybe. will I be sensitive for indicators of narcissism in the future? definitely.



we returned to bredevoort schittert as it is a kind of ritual and as we had a lot of fun here, especially last year. now it is also part of the ritual to have a burger at the karpermeer and listening to james blake while driving there. however, this year was somehow limited in effort and fun, it did not convince us. focussing on the nineties, we had large ghettoblaster (and numerous different horrible techno tracks from multiple places at the same time), a dutch lip-sync play of ‘beauty and the beast’ and a ghostbusters car a.k.a. ecto-1 build from scratch. of course we were the only ones attending the photo gallery which is always surprisingly good. see you next year!?


mülheim finally has a new record store called 'plattenjunks'. I made a quick visit when they opened on last saturdy. I was not in the mood to buy music, to drink or talk, but I guess this was a great opening of a shop offering a wide range in style and price. I was about to buy justice´s second album on vinyl but some scratched made me not do it. I have to bring my unused vinyl and have space for new stuff. my return it set and your visit is recommended. the head picture above is showing me checking out queen´s ‘jazz’ album and has been taken by björn stork, used by permission.


I had to go to mönchengladbach (yeah, 'MG actiontown') for professional reasons and after finishing the job I was wondering if I would find gregor schneider´s ‘haus ur’. I wanted to go there even years before but my navigation failed back in the day, now I was surprised to see that schneiders opus maximus was just some miles away. I was surprised to see it myself. all the known pictures to me appear in black and white, taken at winter or night, however, they are somehow gloomy like an innuendo of the horror inside. checking it myself was surprising, it looks refurnished and placed in a beautiful street surrounded by trees, parkesque places and beautiful houses. maybe the abyss is something ordinary, maybe horror appears by staging it. further reading: 2009-05-25 are you ready to enter the END? | entry by sven and 2010-02-15 END was not the end: garage 2009 | entry by sven.


I am still in year of jamming. I am recently feeling that making shows does not make sense, record of tides was commercially successful last year but I do not know how of if to go on with this project. jamming is recently quite easy to interact with people, to play to an audience, to impress and take them onto a journey or get in contact. however, every attempt to form a live band has failed because of disabilities in playing tight, disliking people and deciding to not spend time with them but mainly because my time so limited and I cannot concentrate on a new project. I have even dismissed the chance to join a band. however, as I recently cannot get joy from making art shows, producing music or deejaying, playing live on jams is the only thing that keeps me going. let´s see where it may lead to…


you might know this impressing sculpture on the big meadow in the gruga park. usually I am pretty good with names and connecting a work or style to an artist, but I could not remember. I had something on my mind like ‘don enchilada’ (which is not meant to be a racist joke) because I could not remember the name ‘eduardo chillida’ who was not the artist anyway. this piece is called ‘orion’ as created by brigitte matschinsky-denninghoff and martin matschinsky in 1987. I suppose it is reflecting the astronomic constellation, nevertheless it is a timeless beauty while appearing light and vivid. I need to add the matschinsky team to my list of artists to know and to recognize while meeting their sculptures.


I apologize for returning to the narcissist topic again and again, but this is my main topic in this second half of the year. even if my knowledge about this phenomenon is taken from the internet my psychologist told me that it is not so easy to diagnose or classify, I was struck by this picture which had been adapted on the net for numerous times. I was thinking about it a lot, and even if this picture displays a horrific scene I have finally realized that things are like this. you cannot save someone, you cannot offer authenticity or sympathy, sane behaviour will receive and insane reaction. while empathy is usually the solution of conflicts it is the base for narcissist´s behaviour. it is hard to accept facts which appear contradictive to everything you have learned and everything you feel, but facts do not work like that. If you are bored of this topic by reading about it you might get an idea how bored I am going through this.




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this year was supposed to be great but it turned out to be different. I felt bad without knowing why, unable to relax and to concentrate on things I have and want to do. I often feel that I should care about serious things without being able to figure out what it is, a sublime feeling of guilt and depression. you feel like you do everything to avoid conflict but you always end up in it. you go through it again and agiain, think about it but you cannot handle it. it sounds like I bad millennial´s joke when I say that it was an instagram post that made me think. It was like: ‘I insulted you and you responded and now I am feeling bad because of you.’ it is like something I have gone through a few times. this post was illustrating narcissism and I forgot about it, went through the same issues and it came back to my mind and I started googling. everything appeared obvious, narcissists are manipulative, unable to apologise (always right), find a guilty one, chase for status symbols, devaluate your part, do not listen to what you have to say and so on. it is amazing how obvious these people act.

when you accept them in your life and take care of them they to not realize that they have a partner, they realize that they can get more and more out of it. it is not about egoism, it is beyond that. It is like a domestic vampire sucking every drop of blood out of you. you have to be aware that you cannot change somebody but you can change yourself. I went through a long process and I am still in it. as it is impossible for me to go separate ways, I have to fight for keeping my limits and reject guilt. every future dialogue will be an attempt of manipulation and a struggle to play it back. I would prefer to honest with everyone, open and interested, but in some cases ‘normal’ behaviour is suicide. If you can learn anything from this post, check the symptoms and see if people try to manipulate you.

after weeks I am still in this situation. I have somehow managed to calm down again and think of something else for a while. actually I am far from what I am usually. I have actually experienced gaslighting, which does not irritate me but makes me upset, also it is a proof that a real discussion is impossible as every fact is turned down by denial or lying. it is actually as simple as this. I am wondering how I am supposed to handle the situation, being transparent and honest does not make sense at all. I wonder if I can battle gaslighting with gaslighting, if I can use manipulation to get rid of manipulation. this is horrible, because this is not what I want to be as everyone who knows and likes me knows that I would never act this way. it remains a dilemma situation, but it is mine. I will have to tackle it. at least, I can see clear now.



back in summer we went to the kunstmuseum bochum, we were surprised to discover takako saito, japanese grand dame of fluxus. the show was fun, full of multiples and stuff to play around with. our favourite: wooden head in which you put tiny balls. as they run through the sculpture they would come out through eyes, nose, mouth or ears – with you yourself chasing for the ball dropping at an unexpected place. saito brought fun into the museum. playing around might be the best thing to do when alive…



I was booked among colleagues for a guided tour to visit and learn about the murals in cologne ehrenfeld. I was not that interested at first but then I realized the city is beautiful and full of these great artworks. I thought I would go on holiday in spain or begium and watch the same stuff, but we have it here! I learned about the controversy, the community, the decay and the subculture, which emerged into peoples everyday life. urbanity means togetherness, parallelism and tolerance. I guess I haven’t frequented froho not often enough this year…


I have shared a link in boards of canada group on facebook as I thought it could be the right audience for ‘pieces upon pieces’. we all need some downbeat idm for the waiting for the scottish brother´s new release (will it ever come!?). I was quite surprised to get some rude feedback, even though I quickly realized that this is not a feedback at all but an opportunity to insult others. it is totally okay with me if you do not like my music, it is up to you to ignore or enjoy. I have learned over the years that the best response is no response. nevertheless, I got new followers and some more listeners on bandcamp. and it is true, there is no bad promo, people talk about you whatever they want, and some have to check if it is true. it is like in life, you have to be open to criticism but you must realize when people just insult you to make you feel as bad as they do.

find our yourself:
recordoftides.bandcamp.com/album/pieces-upon-pieces


and here is just another picture of matthias and me having a good time at isenbergplatz. we always talk about meeting but we only manage to meet every two months or something. it is not easy for me to get into the right mood for this.




the ‘universal victory (david)’ video piece is still in the making but turns out to be great. also I feel that it is connected to the situation I am in. david seems so self-confident, like it is just a game saying: ‘you won´t see coming what will bring you down. then I´ll cut off your head.’

some weeks ago I had been invited by the curator of a big museum, addressed by name but forwarded as email via a mutual friend. the invitation was for ‘bring your own beamer’ to install a video screening among forty others in the museum´s hallway as part of the summer party. I heard about it before but did not want to participate, at least I thought I should answer the request.

dear …,
thank you very much for your enquiry. unfortunately, it was at very last minute. I had already heard about BYOB in advance, but wondered whether I as an artist would like to take part in this context. Iunderstand the concept of opening up, but in curatorial terms it doesn't seem very appreciative to the participating artists and seems rather random to me. the museum means a lot to me and a direct request is of course very pleasing. however, a free power socket in the corridor and the prestige of the building are not enough for me. at first glance, BYOB seems like an opportunity and a strengthening of the local scene, but on closer inspection it offers no adequate compensation, selection, press work, space, technology, support or perspective. I am not implying any malicious intent, but rather thoughtlessness, which is very common in dealing with artists. for serious artists, I would like them to be taken seriously. if the museum's expenditure is so low, why should this art take place in the museum at all?
please do not take this as an offense, but as an advocacy for appropriate and appreciative treatment of regional artists. I wanted to share my thoughts on this because I didn't want to just leave your email unanswered.
best regards

I did not expect an answer, or response taking the criticism seriously. there was a microscopic chance for true interest, but I got the classic answer: BYOB is an artist´s concept, you´re free to participate ore dismiss and it was well attended. the response ignores the actual points, as matthias and me agreed. everything is this typical, boring and not attractive to us. however, michaela, matthias and me were in discussion on it. and this is where I am: when I would have taken every opportunity ten years ago, I am pretty indifferent when it comes to do make shows which nobody really cares for. at least I should think of it as meaningful, beautiful or challenging, the rest is an extra.




there is a rock music based live release, finally, this is an uncut gem, improvised, but surprisingly massive. i hope you enjoy it. turning this snippet into a tiny release was a lot of work...

LPV ‘stone (live)’ on bandcamp
LPV ‘stone (live)’ on youtube




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I went into the summer break knowing that it wouldn't be easy to clam down. there was so much work to do, plus sorrow and some dates I made up for myself to get the feeling that I would still have control on my life. however, all of the work did not lead to more outcome which gives some extra frustration. the stress backlash usually strikes when you have days off, sitting home while not doing what you usually do, realizing how long a day can be without an idea of what to do with it. I have spend a week with my mother and a week at the baltic sea, which gave me some moments of relaxation while being placed out of the ‘normal’ life without all the friends, places and activities. while last year felt so easy, simply stepping form one great thing into another I couldn't transfer the flow into this one. whatever I do, I just feel like a fire-fighter starring at the alarm bell. the wheel won´t stop spinning.

above you see me in our place in gelting, I did not want to leave the continent but we could not go to the netherlands again. the landscape reminded me less of coastal areas, I was thinking more of childhood memories in lembeck running around between the fields. but it was great to drive around through wheat fields listening to turner´s ‘disappearing brother’ and ‘lukin orgel’ in endless repeat. also it was great to be in a calm place with a guitar to practice scales and licks and to write some riffs which might be useful for upcoming AOUD records or jams. (and yeah, we even wrote a song on frizi, the friendly, old and deaf watchdog). starring into the phone does not help at all, so I came up with a german guitar magazine and the art magazine which helped to focus on some more inspirational things.


we are not really fans of the baltic sea as it often appears as bathtub, as michi likes to see. it took some days to find some open sea beach which actually looked a little bit like the thing we were looking for. the high amount of jellyfish kept us off really swimming in the sea, but it is fun to observe, collect at throw stones of all shape and colour.


this picture looks like a surreal composition I did but it is real actually. a kid playing at the beach while marine battleships appear at the horizon. I do not know if these are ordinary manoeuvres or connected to the ukraine conflict, however, it reminds you at this most peaceful place that horrible things are happening nearby – which has become a strange normality.


being on a farm somewhere outside in the country is great to slow down the wheel in your head, but you also check what else is to do, so you check out the bigger cities around do get some input. we went to flensburg and I could not stop about joking to visit my ‘point’ I already have there. (for using my mobile phone while standing in the traffic jam which was caused by the police´ controlling activity…) however, I did not expect too much from the city I knew nothing more about than the beer and the points register. it turned out to be a positive surprise, the harbour felt nordic, beautiful houses and woods surround it. fortunately we discovered the part of the city which was (next to being pretty touristic) also quite alternative. very often you had to go through little passages which lead to tiny but beautiful spaces delivering more cafes, skater shops or record stores.



the other city we had on our list was kiel. we had no expectation but we wanted to take this as an opportunity to get into an art show. the stadtgalerie kiel appeared strangely provincial at first glance as it was a combined complex with the library and artotheque, but we were surprised to see a great show in a perfect space. filip markiewicz combines in ‘liquid poem’ painting, sculpture, music and video to a post-internetesque mash-up of snippets and self-quotes to deliver general criticism on europe and it´s (refugee) politics. I was surprised that michi liked it, it did not get me completely but I deeply sympathize with artists using quotes and music to create a multi-aesthetic experience while having a message. this artist is a discovery and recommendation – not only because he is luxembourgish!


the city appeared like every other city in germany, we agreed that we could have visited bochum instead. while having a roll michi started feeding the begging doves, which became a literally close friend. have a look at the second dove saying: ‘wait, someone´s feeding here… is there something in for me, too!?’ we discovered the plate prohibiting the feeding later, even if the doves have a bad image, they are on the planet anyway. .


a last view on the city of kiel. the stadtgalerie has been a great discovery but the city did not convince us to return.


before checking out is said we have to do some pictures which look like an illustration for a home story interview: the typical relaxed protagonist in a beautiful home – which is even more funny as there is no interview and this is not my home. (I wouldn´t show this way) this is picture #2, I´ll come up with the other one within the right context. then we lost two hours in the traffic jam in hamburg making this place appear even farer away than it was.


it was great to hang out an read the art magazine. the older I get I am more and more in the classic stuff. the article on the grace of michelangelo´s ‘david’ led my interest on donatello´s earlier version which is way more interesting and complex, even after 500 years. donatello´s david poses with goliath´s defeated head. his male body appears quite female which can be read as an innuendo of his own homosexuality but I guess this is far to flat and not really stringent in my perception. maybe this is only one aspect of david´s appearance. I guess there is more in it: of course the seductive power of intelligence and youth, maybe the triumph of the new generation over the old, the female over the male, intelligence over strength and sure good over bad. this piece is perfectly crafted and still keeping secrets after centuries. well, as I am stuck in different video piece productions featuring classic figures from art history, this one is now on my list, too. it is perfect, I cannot make it better, maybe I can work out an aspect.


like every year frida spend some weeks of the summer with us. she has even conquered the table. well, it is useless to teach a cat what not to do. she is already back in her home but her furry hair she left on everything reminds us every day. come back, whenever you want.


taking pictures of fireflies in my garden is impossible, the amount of light is just to low. however, this is my poor attempt. you can capture the light but you cannot capture the magic.


when I spend days with my mother a visit of the westruper heide is a classic thing to do. I love this place, the nature is so different, it even feels like another planet to me, I must have written this a hundred times. if you have a chance to go there, you should go for it.


yet another magic moment in the westrupper heide: a butterfly rested on my shoe. you cannot stage this, and it is even hard to capture.


when you hang out on jams you go from one jam to the other. so I appeared at the HFNjam in duisburg and it was lucky to play with some rocking dudes. we really laid down a cool rock set, it was fun and I want to return. above you can see me playing this great outside place in front of a cheering audience. as you can see, the leg position changes while changing from riffing to soloing. even if this was a great night and I received great feedback and was asked to return we ended up being quite irritated concerning the ‘row zero’ jokes (and an performed sketch). I cannot comment the ramstein issue here, and I do not have more information than anyone else with an opinion but I think sexual abuse is not a good topic to use for jokes while it must not be mistaken for groupie culture. in this context, a lot of cliché concerning playing music as male profiling to impress girls is still alive. I am not free of sin, whoever enters a stage wants to impress, probably the sex you are interested in but at a certain point you have to realize that it is all about the music and the interaction – in other ways you may end up as a tasteless joke yourself.

by the way, I played on elektro jam #5 (the ej#4 bootleg is already available) and I did not feel good that night as I was managing a credit card fraud I had to tackle. so I was not really in it, I could not enjoy it and did not really like what we did. I was surprised when klaus kahmann sent the line-out recording by andreas hilburg who also did some mastering. the recording sounds like a mixture of david bowie´s ‘1.outside’ and a contemporary autechre live gig to me. I remembered everything as non-fitting and forced but the recording sounds great. I hope it will be there by the end of the summer…


I visited park sounds like every year, this is my summer in the city pleasure. to be honest, I skipped the monday to join a jam, the tuesday set appeared boring, it wasn't experimental, classic or weird, I left after an hour (which I never did before) and did not return for the week.




I guess all of you love the boards of canada - societas x tape. it is just a little set but better than nothing new at all. accidently I found a mixtape on archive.org, which appears as beautiful and strange as the brothers´ version. (no, it is not as rich and complex.) I have no information on or connection to the person loading it up, but I just thought I should share it with you as you can check it before you give societas x tape another listen.

archive.org/details/Apr2015Mix




as we are posting today we should not forget to send happy birthday wishes to - the one and only, sir and dr, greatest guitar player of all time – brian may! he was and is still a big inspiration, not only as a guitar player but as thinker (and doer) of our time. cheers!

further reading: 2022-07-23 queen + adam lambert, copenhagen, june 18, 2022 | entry by sven




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last saturday we finally managed to book a slot at an assemble at michel gondry´s home movie factory as built into the alte dreherei in mülheim an der ruhr. we scheduled it originally for may 18 but had to cancel because of my infection (which stragely returned during shooting). by assembling the screening of ‘be kind rewind’ and the following talk with gondry we knew about the set up, the three-hour-experience to create a movie ending with a single dvd copy for the whole randomly assembled group.
michi and me came up with tim and markus and another couple were added to our group. we were guided by an assistant through the sets and workshops. everything was easy, playful und strictly timed, unfortunately we had a collective misunderstanding as we all thought our assistant would cut our movie for the dvd. actually scenes were meant to be shoot in the right order while keeping (or avoiding) all of the bloopers. as tim brought up a banana (explaining that every movie needs a banana) we needed to shoot in alternate order as the peeled fruit was meant to appear unpeeled in the credits shot.

I was wondering how it supposed to be guided, but it was quite easy: in workshop #1 we brainstormed genres and decided on three (!) of them for our movie. we went on brainstorming for the plot and I said: ‘alle gewinnen im lotto und sind dann tot’ (‘all of them win the lottery and end up dead’ or ‘dead lottery winners’) so someone added this would be the perfect title for our movie. we decided on three characters having boring lives and then winning the lottery which would change their lives leading to a lethal disaster for all of them and bringing the figures together. in workshop #2 we did the casting (three characters, an extra and me as narrator plus a camera woman). we were supposed to make a shot list, but we had to craft the titles & end credits, write the script and pick the props. so things appeared to happen parallel and chaotic, but they happened.

while shooting ideas had to be modified, sometimes new ideas came up, some ideas were impossible to be shot. no one was really directing, things happened between ‘action’ and ‘cut’. the experience was stress and fun at the same time, I felt my infection come back, I felt like having fever but the adrenaline keeps you going. I changed my cap for a red hat in reference to the narrator in wes anderson´s movies. I learned a lot about filmmaking, it is easier as you think on one hand, and it is more difficult as you think on the other. you have to make the right decision on time, have to be precise in performance while the movie actually emerges after the good cut. as we were all quite disappointed watching our movie with wrong scene chronology I offered to make a new cut. the same night, michaela and me sat down to cut the shots we agreed to use as we were still aware of what was shot and said. we also added some production stills and unreleased record of tides tracks to it. the next day we did some more edits concerning audio editing and mixing as well as colour correction. even if we still have the original movie, we added the bloopers afterwards, all kept together by some music. the result was pretty convincing, as it was what it was meant to be. we tasted blood, but you know I am addicted to producing anyway.


a car in front of a screen is a classic set for a movie. driving scenes are simple, but how do you shoot an accident with an immobile car? we did some camera shaking and lens flare lighting, but a convincing action could only be created by cutting the right scenes rapidly into one another.


the forest set has a special fascination for me, the pretending of something natural while you immediately see that it is actually not. our script wanted to link all characters within the final accident: berta was supposed to slip (and die) on a banana skin, while car-driving bruce has to yield her but running over party-making konrad. it was impossible for us to bring these scenes together, so only two deaths are linked to one another.


while rendering and burning the movie, we were collaging a dvd cover from old posters and craft stuff. markus even crafted a banana to be added to the cover, which became a visual running gag and was supposed to be the element which led into disaster for all characters. the banana is appearing in almost every scene.


and this is me presenting our final cover, unfortunately we had to donate it to the project and the property of michel gondry. we only have the picture of it above. gondry did not want to sign the dvd I brought up so I did not sign this one as well.


the experience ended in a tiny cinema with all involved people watching the movie they have shot before. this was a strong moment which appears absolutely similar in ‘be kind rewind’. you laugh about yourself while feeling a true connection to everyone around. gondry reported that the (amateur) actors in ‘be kind rewind’ show real emotions while watching their fats-waller-movie, as they haven’t seen it in advance, and the moment I captured on camera.




we are not allowed to publish the movie, but we can show it to friends of course. anyway, here are some stills summing up the storyline of character konrad as portrayed by tim. a lame bar-addicted slowcoach wins the lottery and changes over to expensive drugs in the club just to end in an accident with another lottery winner. the narrator (me with a red hat) leads through the scenes and presents a false consequence from the story, also he has nothing learned from it himself.


the sets also featured two moving dioramas, one with a tram and one with a silver car matching the real car used in the set. both feature a fixed toy vehicle in front of a tv screen while you can make a landscape on a treadmill pass by. the result is astoundingly convincing and such a gondry signature style. we had to film both of them, the tram diorama was matched to character bruce traveling to work by tram, now introduced by the diorama scene as establishment shot.


and the silver car rushing through a landscape which was supposed to look like mülheim an der ruhr. the endlessly looping gifs have been created from michi´s mobile phone shots, the on set shots have been used in the movie. making a movie is simple and complex, natural and artificial, funny and stressful.
I knew all of these things before but now I know them.


we finally watched ‘guardians of the galaxy vol.3’ in a small cinema in oberhausen, not really giving the best cinematic experience. however, we wanted to avoid the big franchises. we are big fans since it took off in 20213 but ended up a little disappointed, all the hype did not do good on it, vol.1 & 2 are perfect movies, great story, great characters, funny and revealing dialogues, a great look and perfect soundtrack. all of it appears strangely reduced in the last chapter, the guardians are always great when childish arguing or pretending to be cooler or more able than they actually are. putting a sixties pop song under a fighting scene is once again fun, using beastie boys appears so obvious and hackneyed. I remember how it started and now it is done, the last post credit scene is a perfect ending and closes star-lord´s journey. is this the end? probably, but probably just for now. but this is marvel and disney, and as long people will watch it they will continuing making movies on your favourite characters, and after nobody´s watching anymore they will do five more. ‘star-lord will return’, the credits say, so I am excited and frightened at the same time.


as nuno bettencourt´s solo in ‘rise’ shook the rock world, he was invited by musician, producer and youtuber rick beato to a longer interview. actually it is not really an interview as nuno just keeps talking for two hours delivering one funny anecdote after the other. however, this guy has something to tell and you can learn a lot from him, even as he never wants to be a teacher but remains a passionate fan boy. towards the end he tries some guitars ending up with a white strat that impresses by its massive output of the true singlecoils. nuno is usually seen with his signature guitars and the kids have to afford them to feel as cool and gifted. Seeing him with a standard model is strange somehow, but experiencing how he uses and does things makes his equipment actually a random element. make the sound come out of your fingers, that´s all you need to know about equipment. watch the full episode over here.


I was humble to join fellow jammers for a private jam in their rehearsal space, we even had a recording which sounded remarkably transparent but delivered all the wrong notes. even if I think I am quite okay on guitar I need to work on lots of stuff. after the jam I made some fun pictures with martin´s gibson SG (you might remember martin playing my white start in january). the SG is a strange guitar to me, I consider it as quite ugly, but it can be cool in certain contexts… however, there is a more funny story about something completely different:
we anted to check the second hand shops and paper shops (and cool ice cream bars) in our home city, making it feel like holiday in spain or bonn or at least froho. however, we got some paper cards, a shirt and cool patches, and ended up in duisburg for a duvel. it is always great to enter a bar on time (or finkenkrug, as we say in germany), when you´re done, the others just came in. we suddenly came up with the term vep (as variation of vip) meaning ‘very early person’. the perfect luxury to be the early bird to get what you have to wait for later on, well, it works best if you are free of responsibility – what we are not too often. however, we made the full vocal variation, here we go:

vap – very attractive person
vep – very early person
vip – very important person
vop – very ordinary person
vup – very unimportant person

all of them might be classifications waiters might use to label you deciding on you. yes, it is good to be attractive or important. It is bad to be ordinary or unimportant. however, it is good to be early, so you can skip all the other labelling shit. does this sound clever to you? I know it does.


is this the end of electronic era? within the electric café group a colleague sold some of his electronic equipment. ss someone asked why he replied to be fed up with electronics and prefect to play only bass guitar instead. I was wondering if I am on a similar track. the new record of tides album is coming and it is brilliant and I love to listen to it, but I am recently not in electronic production. I need a break anyway. plus I have played many venues (mostly in gelsenkirchen), I did a great performance every time and sometimes even connect to the audiences but it does not mean that I am asked to return (like to the kulturpicknick on consol, see me play in 2022). but I am fed up anyway, electronic music has a high range but often low quality. I am pretty bored of techno or drone sets, my post hip-hop productions appear enigmatic to everyone. I never avoided mainstream because it was meant to be cool, I am really board of it. however, playing guitar live is a lot more exciting, you really control the sound with your hands and the audiences connect a lot easier. there is a break recently; maybe i did enough for the moment. the finished productions will come out on zany music, but I am recently looking for something more organic. and I am still not sure if I want to be in a classic band. jams can end up a lot wilder than gigs, and records can be great if it is all in one hand. so this might be a best of both world moment.




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now and then, I had these pictures of me and I had to merge them together. they are taken at shows being 15 years apart, as you can see, I have changed a lot, even if I have to admit that I was wearing a wig for this gig back in the day. on the other hand, some things never change, you can tell it is me by the posture and the reversed strat headstock, using a little bit too much overdrive and do some tapping whenever possible. as I have been playing live a lot in the last months I have also started to work on my guitar skills again, I have learned a lot and it is fun to go further. I try to be technically better. I was wondering if my playing would be less authentic (less me) if come up with new playing techniques, with licks I have copied from idols. actually not. playing live is like a battle situation, you cannot think or consider what to do next, you have to react and play faster than you can actually think. so it is great to have some more skills, stuff your body does because you told him to in advance.
sometimes I realize that moderation or dialogue techniques I have learned for and while being a teacher appear in private situations, and it makes me a better partner, friend or guy to gang around with. am I less authentic? what’s wrong with trying to be better than you are? I am what I am always felt like a lame excuse.

we attended a brunch and had a situation we all might know. there are friends, colleagues or neighbours in your life who suddenly decide to ignore you. no talk, no gaze, no explanation. I had this phenomenon a few times in my life, I was wondering if I did this to people? you end up questioning yourself, where did I go wrong? how did I offend? have I been too drunk to remember the bad joke I told on her? would I do that anyway? these question can grind you and you´ll never get an answer. also it is a waste of time as decisions are made anyway. you accept the situation and feel bad for no reason. talking about technology if have also trained myself for these situations. after years of struggling you feel like it is enough of it, you get too old to hate yourself. so I have learned to gate out these people from my perception, it is not about revenge or anything like that, it is just a way to handle it. once again it is just a technical skill. I have to transfer this principle to more aspects of my life.


when we learned about michel gondry´s home movie factory to be installed in mülheim we were pretty excited. we were even more excited when the astra cinema in essen announced a screening of ‘be kind rewind’ to be followed by an artist talk with gondry. michi said we had to go there, as you need to meet your heroes. I said, well, it is called ‘never meet your idols’. however, gondry has been a huge inspiration, even 15 yeras ago, the fantastic music videos syncing sound and vision perfectly, the movies merging dream and reality, gondry was an endless source of inspiration, driven to put it into action. gondry´s home movie factory even answers the question what to do as an artist apart from making exhibitions or contributing to (film) festivals. it was great to see ‘be kind rewind’ in the cinema again, a funny comedy which slowly turns into drama exploring the fact that you cannot stop change but at least you have one another.

gondry and the urbane künste ruhr staff appeared directly after the screening. he hasn´t been very present to me in the last years, he looks 15 years older compared to my image of him. surprisingly he was not in a good condition, appearing uncomfortable and missing concentration. often the questions were better than the answers, the translating woman did a great job. after some statements on the home movie factory and three questions from the audience the talk was over. we assembled in a short line of nerds to get our dvds signed but gondry decided to leave, just to sit in in front of a closed pub on the opposite side of the street to do some laptop work. I do not know what I have expected but it was the total opposite of it. as we are all human beings it is okay to have a bad day and we all have issues, but I remain irritated. I would have wished for something more inspiring – for all of us.


this is a snapshot from a jam at makroscope in april where I had my nuno & rhianna moment. I remember boris coming on stage telling us there is a young and shy singer so we would turn down the volume and dynamics. we improvised a song together which was really cool. it was my opportunity to sympathise with nuno again, still feeling young but actually referring to a past era. all the skill and effort the old men put in all their lives to create this rock sound is turned into the basement for a new generation. it was cool and it was a magic moment, but it is surprising how quickly you change your role in life…




it is fun if photo or video snippets of jams show up, here you see me playing with tom and björn of kantpark. our jam was labelled as perfect space rock, whatever that means. I hope to be able to release a sound snippet soon and I hope to play with these guys soon again! the telecaster has been delivered by björn, he is the guy who was also honoured to play my silver strat nicknamed ‘mary’. however, teles also work for me, but my fascination is gone after trying them a few times on stage.


these funny pictures I have adapted from kelly moran´s instagram story. as she is preparing to come up with a new album she has attended the warp records office and found these dry plants posted with and advice to warp. I do not know what I have expected, warp record has always been the holy grail of labels to me, influential and peering into the future. watching the dead plans makes them appear human – and busy, obviously. I had to think of the flowers I found after returning to school in the covid lockdown, a strange symbol for sudden decampment putting the flowers on the bottom of the to-do-list. however, not that cool as the sad warp flowers. that's it, the grass looks better on the other side and sun always shines on tv. thanks for these pictures, it made a non-glamorous moment glamorous.


this year is more stressful than usually, it is not that we are more productive or better in any way, there is just more little stuff to do, more dates, more issues on the horizon. I feel stressed by my business stuff, and even stressed by time-off dates. as we wanted to assemble michel gondry´s home movie factory today, I caught my second bad cold for this month. I feel that I’m pretty done, it is never the business and duty that has to wait, it is always my private stuff that has to be skipped. I have to care of my health again, no-one else does. above you see us visiting the netherlands, we joined the huntenkunst art fair, not really to discover or purchase art but to have a good day and meet friends exhibiting there. we had a great day, but in context of too much stuff to do everything too far away from the couch appears as stress. we´ll do michel gondry´s home movie factory later, probably twice. I need a break. however, my bad cold remains persistent, knocking me out for days (in my time off!!!). I need to reset, cross your fingers!


you might already know this one but i just discovered it today - and it made my day. russ hewitt delivers a beautiful flamenco inspired composition, well written, arranged and performed. when nuno comes in, he is instantly recognizable even with this unusual equipment. adding to the composition, supportive and dropping the trademark anyway. yeah, it made my day! seeya, take care!
(adapted from the facebook nuno bettencourt group)




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these days are once again coined by dates and duty, there is not much time for hang-outs or true creativity. I am recently focussing on doing the next architects of utter destruction album but I cannot really start, I do tiny edits on the programming over and over again and practice the riffs. it is still cold outside but I feel the spring coming, I guess I should be more euphoric but I am not. we finally made it to go back to luxembourg, our last attempt to go there was cancelled by the big flood in summer 2021. as the mudam scheduled a show on michel majerus it was set to go back on time.

we ended up a little disappointed, everything was limited in quantity, covid has eliminated shops and soup restaurants we were into, the mullerthal was half-barred and overcrowded. well, I can take it, we have been often so euphoric over the last years, this has been the place that washed away all the sorrow and replaced it with inspiration. it feels like falling into the gap behind all of the euphoria. it is just the way it is, is has been great and it will be again, we take what we are offered, and you cannot order euphoria.


the mudam shows the ‘sense machine’ a conceptual installation drafted by majerus himself featuring large paintings, a library, video and sketchbooks. michel majerus started to mean a lot to me. this show points out even more what makes him special. he takes motifs and techniques from everywhere, uses painting, advertising, collage and computer graphics to create new works. you can truly feel the year 2000 spirit: everything was new, computers and the internet became available for everyone, they were exciting and we could do and discover new things.


majerus adapts it into his work, it feels like a hyper-adaptation anyway… maybe it reminds me of myself: by adapting and merging countless sources the illusion of a new work emerges. or is this the only possible new work?


majerus is also a myth, for the country and by being the archetype of an artist perfectly fitting into media: gifted and productive ending up with an early death just like van gogh, cobain and who ever fits into the scheme. myth and profit remains while the genius artist cannot destroy or modify the myth anymore. we ended up a little disappointed as the show was quite small and limited. but there might be reasons for it…


part of majerus library installation is ‘art at the turn of the millennium’, a kind of a sampler book by taschen which came out 1999. I discovered it at the bookstore in gelsenkirchen and checked it frequently, I was entertained, fascinated and scared by the stuff I found into it. it was quite expensive back in the day, I did not have much money but my mother brought it up a gift for christmas. this book coined me a lot, I fell that I have learned it by heart, I often called it introduction to the bible, it has really put me on track. It was great to find this book in a museum, it might be out-dated already, but it was like a portal into a new world. I might have wasted too much of my time with art, but it made become a good artist, designer and teacher.


the other big show on display was by peter halley. I remember him having a show at museum folkwang when I was a student and an art class took me there. I did not understand anything. the other students were arrogant and did not talk to me, halley´s paintings were iconic and intellectual, I did not get it. nevertheless halley has always been present to me… the show at mudam was good, and I finally got the joke right. halley breaks down the world into houses, prisons, tubes and geography. why did I take this for highly intellectual all these years? great pictures in great rooms, but to be honest, josef albers did better.


the casino luxembourg came up with great media art as usually, we were not really open to get it in full. one of the pieces was an virtual reality experience by dominique gonzalez-foerster. you sit into a room around a table and drift into an abstract world of plastic clouds and colourful rorschach tests… all of this is impressing, technically and as an experience. but is this art? and what is dominique gonzalez-foerster´s work all about? I´ve seen the big solo show in düsseldorf back in the day but I do not get it. this works makes it even more diffuse for me.


the ratskeller had a show with surreal black and white photos by david lynch on display. the show did not impress us too much, even if I like lynch as a filmmaker and type of artist very much. more interesting was the curator who had to be present and who talked to us for about an hour. he adviced us to check the konschthal next time, said that dominique gonzalez-foerster´s work at casino was great and the foundation taking care of majerus´ estate is not easy to work with and does not really understand and recreate his work the way it was meant to be. incidentally, we got some extra info and some luxembourgish views from the inside. the picture above is a kind of a joke, it is the advertising for the show in the windows of the ratskeller. I took a picture for a different reason: I came across a picture where someone put a sticker on his window saying ‘directed by david lynch’, like it would appear in the opening credits of a movie. so the crazy world would finally make sense as you consider it as a surrealistic movie directed by lynch. taking the picture above was kind of the same thing… except that I am obviously in that movie, as the letters are mirror-inverted.


another frequent must take picture, the reflection on my shoes at pfaffental lift. just an urban vehicle and a tourist attraction. another common finding: make the necessary a spectacle!


on our way to luxembourg city we thought it would be great to discover a new place: vianden turned out to be quite strange for us. nothing was actually open, nevertheless the tourists were running into the castle, the few open cafes were well organized by very expensive.


as I have spend some days in gelsenkirchen again, I went to the ‘evolving kinetics’ show at kunstmuseum gelsenkirchen. I would not have visited it anyway, but i just had a free time slot nearby so things fell into place. the show appears pretty contemporary for the house, curated by peggy schoenegge the line-up features names as banz & bowinkel, nicolas sassoon and kim asendorf. indeed, the technology is impressive. okay, even I could produce ‘primitives’ in less than a minute (the render process might take longer and might be the impressive technology here), it is fun to discover objects floating and turning in augmented reality, and it is an experience to discover an abstract sculpture via virtual reality. but it remains abstract, technically impressive and without any meaning. some of the works appear even technically identical, so even in aesthetics. the piece from the invitation card is missing...


later that day I commented on a post by peggy schoenegge on instagram, I expressed that it was a good show but also that I am sceptical. she asked via private message for specification, and this is what I wrote:

I don't want to ruin it. the works are technically up to scratch, but I wonder if the works aren't sometimes just technical showcases. in terms of message, I think it's thin. when technology becomes out-dated, there may not be much left.... please don't take this as an offense, the show works as a whole and is fun to watch. digitisation often just declines its own possibilities without asking or answering the question of actual progress.... can you relate to that?

I did not expect discourse or dialogue, I don't even know if I was understood. curating a show is just picking the right names to make sure everyone believes that you know what is going on. five or ten years ago I might have tried to curry favour with the curator, now I know this would lead into nothing anyway. or am I just jealous? maybe, but actually not. I have realized that my life would not be better if I would be part of this show or scene (which actually does not exist the way it looks from the outside). I have already exhibited video works in this place, the cgi generated ‘videotape/spool’ in 2015 and ‘heliodorus’ in 2019 as well as ‘puddle’ in 2016. there is more content, story and media reflection in all of my works. you can call me jealous or frustrated. trust me I´m not. just take a closer look and don´t believe the hype.


virtual reality glasses are fun, of course. you take a look around and find yourself in a new place. once again, you can discover an impossible sculpture, a digital creation know to nerds as ‘trendwhore’, impressive to those who are not into it, and once again not beyond technological possibilities.




also I have to share tis picture kirsten lipka a.k.a. gelsenmylove has taken during the glitch hop hdj set at HIND and published via her blog over at gelsenmylove.de. have an eye on this site and so not miss the glitch hop hdj set at rosi gelsenkirchen on april 20.
all in the nutshell:

check out the facebook event
check out the glitch hop hdjs sets microsite
check out the live section
check out the rosi-gelsenkirchen.de


update 2023-04-24: the last jam at anyway was great. I debuted my long-term partocaster project nicknamed 'mary'. the technician was right, it looks fantastic on stage - also it sounds awsome. eventhough it is one of many strats I own recently, they all sound compleately different... later Iwas offerd to play someone else´s guitar and it it is great to see myself with a telecaster... I jusrt look like tom morello but I never tried to copy that. teles are great but I think that Ido not need it anymore. ready for the next jam? ready for studio?


update 2023-04-24: as I got tickets for the ‘expect the unexpected show‘ at kunstmuseum bonn we finally made it to have a look at the new positions. well, you know I am critical, and even michi agreed that most of it is just playing with technology. often all the glitches and half-finished attempts remain to pretend new aesthetics but it is just the random data trash the machines come up with. the presentation was quite bad, large woks tight on small walls (mirroring the windows), architectural models attached to the wall and strange light situations as you can see above. nevertheless, you sometimes find positions that use technology to create content that is content and would be impossible without. tamas waliczky uses cgi to recreate modern versions of historic photography generating (or presenting) machines which have been sketchet over the last 150 years but have never been manufactured. he shows us what could have been. the way of presentation is calm, the work is impressive.


update 2023-04-24: beate gütschow digitally collages photographic material and merges it into strangely appering pictures that look like photographs but feel like paintings. by avoiding central perspective and keeping the lines parallel evoking the illusion of a pre-renaissance painting. the picture is obviously more than the motif. gütschow shows us that digital production can create a unique style, apart from what the machine wants you to do. jon rafman was features with his Instagram channel presenting a.i. app generated horror pics. how lame is that?


update 2023-04-24: michel majerus is everywhere. his echo is long and loud and it is supposed to be. I am always feeling like meeting an old friend. he surprises again and again, willing to push the medium as far as it gets while using contemporary images production devices(!). even if the story ended 20 years ago, he is still more a prophet for the future that all the app twiddlers pretending to be on top.




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in the last months I must have changed a lot. I was always driven to make shows and head for the next project, now I am pretty laid back. I have discovered the joy of playing live, maybe for the first time ever. playing live was never that thrilling for me, maybe I never met the right people. I might not have played with a real drummer since 2000, we started our band ‘apologies’, never left the rehearsal room and split up as my former best friend jay started not a new job and could not join the band anymore. I focussed on studio work, but playing in studio is not the same.

since september 2022 I play live on jams regularly, it was always nice but sometimes fantastic. on march 10 the makroscope started the second ‘freispiel’ jam session. it was pretty full and pretty wild. It was supposed to end at 10 pm but when I felt exhausted by playing I realized it to be past midnight. you play with people you would never talk to, you have to interact and you end up in arms. there are two findings in jams: if you are open-minded you will get in contact with people. I am pretty bored of hanging out at gallery show openings with people standing around being afraid of new contacts. the jam forces you to interact, you might end up with some more people to know, or with a friend…

playing jams also makes you realize that people play the way they are. maybe it was obvious to everyone else that the personality (or soul?) manifests in probably everything a person does. I really believe that I can tell something about people just by jamming with them and see how they behave. of course, it is also the other way around, I might tell a lot about myself, and my mates might decode it as well. so are you looking for the song, are you listening to others or do you force them to play a complex riff and abuse others as backing band for your solo masturbation? I could be all of this myself, but it might be my age that I act different than 20 years ago. making music together evokes a certain magic, a true feeling of deep joy and connection between the performers and the audience. it is not about theory, about who is best and who is dominant. how do you turn a choir assembled of soloists into a choir? playing live as brought up thoughts like these, formed in the context of music but are blueprints to be transferred to society and relationships.


we did a fantastic jam at anyway on march 9, we started a power trio, we altered the guitarists and I returned to jam for a larger set-up. during the first set I realized the strings to be quite sticky, when I looked down I had a little moment of shock. a tiny wound on my thumb started to bleed caused by my pinch harmonics technique, half of my thumb was red already while the guitar was already blood-splattered. as it looked like a death metal guitar graphics design, it was actually not painful and I decided to just go on playing. so I did not care to platter more blood on my white daisy and waited for the wound to stop bleeding.
what remains is a heroic anecdote and a picture of a blood-splattered daisy before cleaning (click the picture for a close-up). it reminded me of a story rory gallagher told in an interview about a live jam with slash. he reported that slash injured his hand and kept playing, gallagher said that it was a great performance why the guitar ended up blood-covered. playing live is fun, especially playing jams is fun. you learn a lot about music and people and yourself, it is interesting from an artistic and social point of view.


when brian may announced to become sir, I felt it was on time, why did it not happen earlier? nuno bettencourt also posted some perfect words on instagram:

a knight at the opera.
i was bowing to you… decades before you became a sir.
you first rocked my life as a young kid obsessing over every queen song ever recorded and you shaped me as a guitarist, composer and singer… and then you shaped me as a human being with your friendship and kindess.
so proud of you … long overdue.

when I read out these words to michi, she immediately responded that I could have written it. and it is true, brian may might be a guitarist in the first place but he always proving that he is more than that, a true inspiration on how to treat other beings, especially being a gentle and clever guy while being a rock star, of finding inspiration and honestly dealing with own mistakes and inabilities. I learned so much from this guy, although he never tried to teach. keep it coming, sir!


I finally did the glitch hop hdj set at hier ist nicht da and it was pure fun, actually what it was supposed to be. I did not pull many people but a few, more important was that it perfectly fitted into the space. I played for about three and a half hours, got to know a bunch of new people doing an after show party at trinkhalle afterwards. a great place to be.
a guy came over checking for the wu-tang clan remix by funkstörung, a girl confessing her support, another girl giving props while being half-involved into the hind, two guys sitting in a corner appearing pretty entertained when the abstract glitches tear every structure apart in the middle of ‘qtio’ and a staff of basti, nadja and roman as being kind and helpful. also kirsten, christoph, leonie and lukas came by to show interest and make plans for future projects or hangouts… later a guy told me that he was waiting to aphex twin and more deconstructed stuff, I skipped the fanta 4 ‘krieger’ afx remix for being a coward, but I will come up with it next time!


I was delighted to see that my posters were hanging around everywhere. I brought up some more to the show a give-away, unfortunately I had a false estimation concerning the interest of getting a poster.


I still think they are awesome. if you want one, tell me now.

check out the glitch hop hdjs sets microsite
check out the live section


this little snapshot must have been taken somewhere during the glitch hop hdj set, artist, curator and maker christoph lammert came around to enjoy the set and so he did. when I showed up for a new drink, we must have been talking about things to come… there is nothing fix but it is always great to plot something.


and here is another strange and funny picture of richard d. james a.k.a. aphex twin while producing the ‘druqks’ album. the double disc album is actually more like a strange collection of ambient music, prepared piano pieces and drill’n’base driven idm – so it does not really appear to belong together. anyway, it is obviously one of his best works, illustrating the genius. rich appears funny and unpretentious, producing a masterpiece on a laptop while hanging out with the girls. this picture is authentic, it could be staged anyway, is this room comfortable or awkward? same question for ‘druqks’.




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I am recently playing around with some loose ends. a lot of professional ideas, art and music projects as well as private relationships need to be spun together. my power and concentration is limited, everything takes weeks or moths to be put into action – or to happen at all. the spark of the first ignition is already done, when it is happening you have tried to keep the fire burning like a torch-bearer. often I try to plan up to an end. I have to learn to live with the open end, ‘the process’ as people call it who never bring something to an end. the first months of the years are always about that…

the art projects have to be managed properly, I am not on fire recently. I am not skipping it, I just do it for the routine the surprise for myself when things turn out great. maybe the thrill is gone, and maybe it needs a break.

as I have discovered my passion for playing live again, I am facing numerous dead ends again which drive me nuts. when you try to form a band, there is so much of discussing and talking, organizing and planning, only some playing and then it does not happen for numerous reasons. I ended up pretty depressed on the last weeks. on the other hand I Iove to play jams. you are just into the music, you do it for yourself and the audience always likes it, they sometimes even spend money or a free drink. this is true fun, why am I still searching for the ambitioned way. as one of my colleagues used to say: ‘we´ve learned what we knew already.’ I end up desperate when organizing a band. so I put my own ultimatum. when the things do not fall into place until march, I will finally concentrate to the second architects of utter destruction album and do some jams for fun. as I writing this, it appears as the best plan recently.


ithree days in zeeland within and to avoid the carnival season is ritual. it helped to calm down, get some distance and find solutions. as we are trapped in rituals of beach walks and certain restaurant visits all the pictures taken end up more or less the same – but hey, this is what we wanted it to be. above you see a magic sunset behind the dune as seen from our hotel.


some weeks ago in the end of january I did the laser biathlon again. I debuted in 2017 and I was pretty good in getting pulse under control while shooting after a 400 m langlauf. this time I was pretty bad, my condition was gone after 150 m and it was hard to finish, even my shooting was bad. I ended up on ranking position #33 (#9 in 2017) so I want to perform better next time! cross your fingers. have a look at the full ranking: biathlon-tour.de


once in a while I am trying to find new media on mourning widows, nuno bettencourt´s band which only released on japan (as far as I know) and which I am totally obsessed with. they made I sound I still want to do today, to me thy sound fresh and contemporary but all of this happened 20 years ago. you might have seen nuno´s unworthy superbowl contribution, with his unlimited abilities in mind it is unbelievable that he was degraded to be an extra. no matter with whom he is sharing the stage, he is always the better singer, guitar player, songwriter and performer, on stage he is even funny, modest and also moderating. I have learned a lot from this guy which is extremely useful during jams. here we go.



back in 2021 I presented some visual echoes featuring prefuse 73 showing performances which looked somehow like mine, see 2021-02-01 self-made game shows and recurring visual echoes | entry by sven. I search for live performance pictures of prefuse once in a while and I was once again surprised to find pictures echoing shots of my very own performances. I admit that I have edited the colours a bit to make it more similar but I did not do any other edits.



I am surprised again and again to see him play smaller venues, this guy has put out numerous albums, even on warp, defining a whole genre. I imagine him applying at the same festivals I do and getting dismissed for being ‘not what we are looking for’. the mainstream is made to commercialize the image and not to celebrate true art and music. I am not complaining, I am just repeating my finding like a mantra.

update 2023-02-25: this picture looks so unreal as I would never expected it to happen, to me it looks like two worlds collide which appeared to have nothing in common. it has been taken after the elektro jam #4 at lokal harmonie in duisburg. it shows (from left to right) myself, dean blues and andreas hilburg. when dean came up with the idea to take a picture at the piano, I sat down and played a random chord. fun fact: while I am the one with the hands on the keys i am the only person in the picture who is not able to play…





update 2023-02-25: playing the jam was great. you would not re-watch the two hour set again on facebook, there has been a lot drone, noise and krautrock but we had some ‘autechre meets brian may moments’. playing live in changing constellations is exciting, the results are differing and surprising in style and quality – just like my records…




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here we go again. as I was dreaming about keeping the kinetic energy to get through the winter I feel like having slowed down, maybe frozen already. I find myself in organizing, producing and preparing while I am getting nothing. working in a bubble I cannot get out. I still witness myself as very productive but the question of ‘why’ rises and is getting more and more dominant. why am I doing it anyway? my obsessive production processes feel ridiculous…

above you see me during the opening of ‘zeitenwende’ at forum für kunst und architektur in essen. it was well organized and I met many kind, interesting and interested people, but I did not feel like going there in advance. I did it because it was on schedule, it did not really made me happy although I am happy to be chosen and able to exhibit. a strange feeling of loosing kinetic energy, is this what burn-out feels like? we are considering an artist talk and I have announced to participate, not doing it won´t answer any problem at all. I feel exhausted in many aspects of my duty, profession and creations. the journal helps a lot, not only as therapy writing, also as proof that I go through the same episodes annually at the beginning of the year. I made it through the last year, I now I feel exhausted, I´d need a break and i am starting the new one. it feels like walking in led shoes. will it be better in summer?


i wanted to visit the museum folkwang on new year´s day, as a colleague dismissed our date after an extra day of work on a saturday I decided to face the museum alone. it did not get me this time, art is usually the answer to dark days, if you enter a show with a bad mood you will only find dark and flat pieces. however, I was surprised to discover an assembly of works by michel majerus. I have a strong fascination for his work, to me he is a kind of luxembourgish basquiat, even if this label is completely wrong. majerus is driven and samples motifs and styles to adapt into his own body of work. I often take gerhard richter as an archetype for my changings of genre and style as a musician, majerus might be the archetype to record of tides’ ‘purchases’ series. you simply take pieces, sometimes not larger than the atom itself and compose it into a wider and weirder composition (isn’t this what the universe does all the time since a billion years?). it can be intellectual and funny, isn´t this the perfect piece?


also I wanted to join the opening of the ‘stopover’ show of photography students in the museums basement. as I was installing my screen myself (the big flat screen decided to not function anymore) I missed the opening, so my bad mood saturday afternoon offered the opportunity to finally have a look at the show. I was surprised to see that only half of the basement was used for the show. the work of volker crone made an impression and made me think: at first the large panels appear as night sky photographs, a second look the stars appear as tiny holes while the cut-out material is stored in match boxes in the middle of the room. I was wondering, when we erase something, where does it go?


two weeks ago the electric café and eurorack ruhr created an event at makroscope featuring a lot of cables and machines to make noise with. it was great to see all the mates from electric café again, to chat and make plans an enjoy the music, which was all great. my highlight was o.s.cilliator a.k.a. oliver schupp who owned the stage with an all live house and song driven performance. it is great to see the scene emerge and I am proud to be a humble part of it.
you might like to find out more about this night in the report by alfred arnold over at empulsiv.de.



I wanted to do a glitch hop set for a while now and offered the concept to some venues harvesting a lot of frustration, so I am more than surprised to present two shows now. I even feel scared of my own idea, I drafted it and it was put on the schedule by others and now it is happening with me not knowing exactly what may happen. it is exciting anyway, it may turn out great or lame, two chances, we´ll see…
these dates are standalone events for fun, somehow they are also promotional dates for the ‘post internet’ album (which is lying around finised since two years…). it is hilarious, I am already finishing the album after the album after ‘post internet’ and it will be great material. in this context I am also working with artists and directors to have the right video for it. so I will come up with another but final video by matthias danberg for ‘post internet’ and I am recently working with christopher terhart, robin moedder and chris huff on upcoming material. there is great stuff ahead…
I am taking the visual site very serious here, but I do not want to do it all on my own as I found people willing to work with me and contribute to the project and as I am thankful for their fantastic input. I have realized to start working on the album covers when I feel an album in production, I guess the cover is as important as the music, maybe the cover is everything most people know about an album, maybe it is a door opener to some… keep an eye on the internet, great stuff is coming, for the meantime let´s have some fun:

glitch hop hdj sets microsite
all info in the live section


I just found this picture I have to share with you: autechre, aphex twin, squarepusher and nightmares on wax are posing as warp records super group, taken around 2000. This is pretty much nailing where I want to go with my projects: being part of a group, still being completely individual and autonomous, superstars in an exquisite scene that is meaningless to the flat mainstream. this picture illustrates a fantasy which might never been real. prefuse 73 is missing in the picture, he had been dismissed from the label for unknown reasons after numerous releases. it happened years later, this is also part of the truth and the broken fantasy.




sven piayda | the impossibility to take pictures of the present
Z E I T E N W E N D E
forum kunst und architektur, essen
2023-01-22 – 2023-02-12, opening 2023-01-22, 3 pm

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45127 essen




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starting a new year is always a strange ritual, you have closed projects and look for new ones, you set up dates like you would be actually in control. there is a something like a felt gap ‘between the years’, everyone is somewhere, nothing seems to happen. I need the projects to keep me going and I am setting up new ones. there are also set up collaborative projects where the partner is the pacemaker. as I look back on a good year I wonder how I can take the euphoria over to the new one, like using the kinetic energy of my rolling train waiting to ignite again. also I believe in routine to keep (the illusion of) control. we discussed to spend new year´s eve on kirchberg again but dismissed the idea as it appeared a little too expensive to us. we surrounded out nye with museum visits (we skipped museum folkwang on new year´s day…) and did our own little party with pizza and alcohol-free sparkling wine. however, as I believe in routines I would have loved to do my classic wall-sitting-picture in front of the panorama you would be able to see from kirchberg, instead I did the classic posture in the siepen for the second time again. same posture, same place, different spot. well, I guess even if you are keen on visual echoes you need some variation…


I remember having a good time in the winter of 20219/2020 in luxembourg, we were attending museums even on new year´s eve, and it was a great opportunity to spend your time while you can actually do nothing. as we wanted to go back to museum helmond after discovering it in autumn 2021 we decided to spend the day watching the shows on display. the museum featured a show on walker evans. it is always great to have a look on this american icon, this show transfers it into the contemporary and conceptual context by placing it next to positions based upon the approach or even single works by walker evens. we also had a look at the helmond castle, it was fun to do the round tour in reversed direction, stumbling from one room into another. living on a castle means to be surrounded by objects mirroring the own relevance, even 900 (?) years ago. Impressive and well decorated, augmented augmented and perfectly staged… we prefer the regular museum.


in the time beween the years I scheduled a day to visit some musician friends in velbert. as I expected everyone to live further apart, I did not know that it would be so funny and easy. jan-dirk platek and me haven´t really met back in 2019 when I played at the tiny electric café open air festival in werden, but jan liked what I did and we had a digital connection. in 2021 we started collaborating on his request and we did two tracks together. one of them is the unmatched ‘expotential’. in winter 2021 jan send some more tracks and we did some more collaborative tracks which ended up on the ‘boxes’ ep. however, I thought it would be time for us to meet and chat and so we did. two guys in our age are both experienced in music and know here we want to go and where not. we chatted about music and life and ended up recording some guitar tracks for fun. surprisingly, jan send a fully produced post rock piece the next day, even if it was drafted as technical demo, I guess I need to put it on CRW3. it is once again amazing how easy it is to collaborate, actually it is always easy with the gifted ones. we have scheduled nothing for the future but I guess a future episode is possible.


later that day I drove down to langenberg. martin is a guy I know from the anyway jam sessions. he usually comes up with a blues harp but he is also a gifted guitar player. as there is the idea of forming a band again, martin turned out to very interested and ambitioned to join as bass player. next to his abilities as a musician I have asked myself who I would like to share a stage and spend my time with, and martin is a guy ticking all the boxes. however, it was like visiting a friend and check his toys, martins house is full of guitars, we had espresso and jammed on some ideas. unfortunately, his abilities of an electronic engineer made him modify some instruments in a way that trigger physical pain by watching it… experiencing us on stage is fun, cross your fingers so we can do it in a more organized way…


I felt so pioneering when I released ‘random darknet shopper’ after my little nye party. I was not the first of the year but I felt like it. however, jan dirk-platek started the year with purchasing and listening to my track. his comment on bandcamp made my day start good as well: awesome songwriting and production. if you‘re into trippy IDM hit the buy button.


and here is a picture of me on my private little new year´s eve party. well, when we are at home, things usually do not get wild. we have to stage these dancing moves. however, the picture has been taken with a polaroid adding some nostalgia by its unique colour scheme. when I set my calendar for 2023 I rediscovered the sketch of picking tracks I have made for my hdj set at consol in summer 2022. (it is still great and available from the /CAMP) I still remember this day with mixed feelings but in retrospective it was great to play these great tracks to people in the beach club – and even more important – under the red ruin of the consol shaft tower.
for 2023 I have fixed two dates where I will be hdjing weird and unique tracks I have collected over a decade now in conceptional sets in events I have been working on for months now. I am not telling more recently, but there will be posters as collectable items. however, two sets in two places in gelsenkirchen. do not miss it.


when phil barnett posted a picture of sunrise intervals, I immediately had an idea for a video piece. as we started collaborating again, we listened to the remixes we made for each other more than a decade ago. we agreed that we would do things different today but also that the stuff is still good. as I want to make sure that our music remains reliable available, I will do digital reissues of ‘greatest hits’ and the remix releases of the original mp3s with corrected meta data and as reliable zip file. maybe we´ll do a bandcamp reissue one day, but for now there are reasons to keep it on zany music.




sven piayda | the impossibility to take pictures of the present
Z E I T E N W E N D E
forum kunst und architektur, essen
2023-01-22 – 2023-02-12, opening 2023-01-22, 3 pm

forumkunstarchitektur.de

forum kunst und architektur
kopstadtplatz 12
45127 essen




sven piayda | aftermath
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2020-09-26, 3pm at zeche carl
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