I
am recently playing around with some loose ends. a lot of professional ideas,
art and music projects as well as private relationships need to be spun together.
my power and concentration is limited, everything takes weeks or moths to be put
into action – or to happen at all. the spark of the first ignition is already
done, when it is happening you have tried to keep the fire burning like a torch-bearer.
often I try to plan up to an end. I have to learn to live with the open end, ‘the
process’ as people call it who never bring something to an end. the first months
of the years are always about that…
the art projects have to be managed
properly, I am not on fire recently. I am not skipping it, I just do it for the
routine the surprise for myself when things turn out great. maybe the thrill is
gone, and maybe it needs a break.
as I have discovered my passion for
playing live again, I am facing numerous dead ends again which drive me nuts.
when you try to form a band, there is so much of discussing and talking, organizing
and planning, only some playing and then it does not happen for numerous reasons.
I ended up pretty depressed on the last weeks. on the other hand I Iove to play
jams. you are just into the music, you do it for yourself and the audience always
likes it, they sometimes even spend money or a free drink. this is true fun, why
am I still searching for the ambitioned way. as one of my colleagues used to say:
‘we´ve learned what we knew already.’ I end up desperate when organizing a band.
so I put my own ultimatum. when the things do not fall into place until march,
I will finally concentrate to the second architects of utter destruction album
and do some jams for fun. as I writing this, it appears as the best plan recently.
ithree
days in zeeland within and to avoid the carnival season is ritual. it helped to
calm down, get some distance and find solutions. as we are trapped in rituals
of beach walks and certain restaurant visits all the pictures taken end up more
or less the same – but hey, this is what we wanted it to be. above you see a magic
sunset behind the dune as seen from our hotel. 
some weeks ago in the end of january I did the laser biathlon again. I debuted
in 2017 and I was pretty good in getting
pulse under control while shooting after a 400 m langlauf. this time I was pretty
bad, my condition was gone after 150 m and it was hard to finish, even my shooting
was bad. I ended up on ranking position #33 (#9 in 2017) so I want to perform
better next time! cross your fingers. have a look at the full ranking: biathlon-tour.de
once in a while I am trying to find new media on mourning widows, nuno bettencourt´s
band which only released on japan (as far as I know) and which I am totally obsessed
with. they made I sound I still want to do today, to me thy sound fresh and contemporary
but all of this happened 20 years ago. you might have seen nuno´s unworthy superbowl
contribution, with his unlimited abilities in mind it is unbelievable that he
was degraded to be an extra. no matter with whom he is sharing the stage, he is
always the better singer, guitar player, songwriter and performer, on stage he
is even funny, modest and also moderating. I have learned a lot from this guy
which is extremely useful during jams. here we go. 
back in 2021 I presented some visual echoes featuring prefuse 73 showing performances
which looked somehow like mine, see 2021-02-01
self-made game shows and recurring visual echoes | entry by sven. I search
for live performance pictures of prefuse once in a while and I was once again
surprised to find pictures echoing shots of my very own performances. I admit
that I have edited the colours a bit to make it more similar but I did not do
any other edits. 
I
am surprised again and again to see him play smaller venues, this guy has put
out numerous albums, even on warp, defining a whole genre. I imagine him applying
at the same festivals I do and getting dismissed for being ‘not what we are looking
for’. the mainstream is made to commercialize the image and not to celebrate true
art and music. I am not complaining, I am just repeating my finding like a mantra.
update 2023-02-25: this picture looks so unreal as I would never expected
it to happen, to me it looks like two worlds collide which appeared to have nothing
in common. it has been taken after the elektro jam #4 at lokal harmonie in duisburg.
it shows (from left to right) myself, dean blues and andreas hilburg. when dean
came up with the idea to take a picture at the piano, I sat down and played a
random chord. fun fact: while I am the one with the hands on the keys i am the
only person in the picture who is not able to play… 
update
2023-02-25: playing the jam was great. you would not re-watch the two hour
set again on facebook, there has been a lot drone, noise and krautrock but we
had some ‘autechre meets brian may moments’. playing live in changing constellations
is exciting, the results are differing and surprising in style and quality – just
like my records… 
sven
piayda | aftermath
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